so much to do so little time
rash emotions muffling the mind
they make me think crazy things uncouth things irrational things
why am i feeling the way i do towards you
i need an answer soon.
then again,
you only left it as "your decision".
it’s been…. forever, since i last updated this blog. soo much has happened since the last post. so much.
a while ago,
i’ve come to a blessed realization. i have such great friends here. they’re family, like literally. i don’t quite know how to describe it, but, i’ve never really felt this appreciated and cared for in my life by a group of people who i’ve only known for… not even 2 years. irreplaceable.
also, i’ve found myself someone, who has magically made me feel so happy, so cared for, so special. it’s only been 2 months, the 19th June ♥ i still can’t apprehend how he does it.
lately,
reliving the bittersweet memories, to be. despite my enthused anticipation to see u guys at the end of the year, part of me, just doesn’t really want to leave anymore… i would like to stay, and remain this family.
i would like to cruise up to mission bay and have movernpick and fish&chips while we curse at the seagulls that won’t leave our food alone. i would like to continue our saturday morning branch rituals, and hunt about for new cafes to experience. i would like to have our occasional splurges at fancy restaurants. i would like to sit at "out spot" at the viaduct at night, and eat gelato ice-cream, even though it’s winter. i would like to stay with him.
but i won’t.
because the rule goes, never to let anyone jeopardize your studies. and i shall obediently abide to that. like i did once.
anyway,
SOON,
School’s having a runway fashion show this saturday, 25th August 07. it’s fund raising supporting dyslexia, and our bright students from the Young Enterprise Company, Etiquette, have gathered together about 20 models, give or take. it’s funny though, how grace tan and i are the only asian models.
Went to our fitting today at Richochett. I’ve got a mannnnn outfit. LOL. it’s a high waisted pants matched with a loose beige top with rugged type gloves and a thick black cuff, paired off with black heels. i look so man, its disturbingly amusing. hahaha. i’m so gonna get mocked at on saturday, just you wait.
catwalk rehearsals will be tomorrow and friday. looking forward to that. hopefully i’ll get to see what the rest of my outfits are like.
Lisa, Ying, Cliff, Roger and maybe Yoou will be comin to support me! 
yay! i hope i don’t trip and fall. i’d be scarred… for life! :’( the event starts at 7-10pm. But we have to be there by 2pm, i suppose to get ready for makeup and hairdo. After fashion show, we’ll be heading to Cara’s 18th at Brooklyn. She’s rented the bar out for the night. Gonna be so tired by then. Plus, no time to study for the whole of saturday.
i really should be starving myself, like all the other models, starting from… NOW. But i really don’t give a rats arse. i had a king size bar of Whittiker’s macadaemia nut chocolate for breakfast and lunch today. oh, and heaven’s truffle chocolate the day before. lol.
should have some pictures out from the fashion show next week. but don’t think i’ll post them up lol i’m gonna look like sucha freak compared to the other girls. eww.
just pray i don’t trip and fall. pray i don’t trip and fall. prayyy
xoxo
